Before Xanax

[Alexandre]

I'm generally not emo like this, but I thought it'd be good to write out some of my emotions.  I've never taken Xanax or gotten a prescription, but I may go see someone to help me calm down.

Before Xanax

Some mornings I lie
In bed, staring
At the bright white
Ceiling, the wall above
Me.

And I cry
But I don't know why I cry
Anymore.

The bed sheets are
Dirty, the dishes piled
In a corner, dust lying
In clumps around the room.

I wanted to
     Fly a plane
     Build a house
     Skydive
     Learn Japanese

But I didn't

And I lie
In bed as my roommate blasts
"Crazy Train"
Downstairs.

I have no
     Coal
     Energy
     Emotion
     Drive

But I've driven
Myself to the line between
The desert and reality.

They both dry me up,
Cracking
My skin until I

Until I

And I cry
But I don't know why I cry
Anymore.

[Bai]

That's beautiful, and really resonates with some things I've been through in the recent past.
You can kinda get this sense of crying from it, like that 'stuttering' people do when they're sobbing and trying to talk.
I like it, even if it saddens me

[Shim]

That's beautiful, and really resonates with some things I've been through in the recent past.
You can kinda get this sense of crying from it, like that 'stuttering' people do when they're sobbing and trying to talk.
I like it, even if it saddens me

I got that same feeling, reading it. The stuttering thing, I mean. As a professional crier, I often have trouble speaking, when I cry.

[Sigurd Volsung]

Despite being another fur who has been on Xanax I have a bit of a hard time relating to this song probably because of all the other junk that was in my system at the time. I was mostly using the drug to help me sleep at night.

[Cimarron]

I can relate... especially lately.  Keep writing... I cannot tell you how much I enjoy your poems.

[xelhua]

I like your writing style a lot and the way you arrange the lines that it's almost as if you're stuttering, it gives it a nice touch to it. Great work!