Well, I figured I'd dredge up my old, angsty poetry.. Granted, they're kind of scary, but bear with me..
Demon
depravity is my name
absolute inhumanity
corpse-cold and empty
forever hungry and seeking
so let me seduce you
weave my beautiful lies around your heart
take you into my arms
your monstrous saviour
let me into your mind
singing my siren songs into your ears
prying into your thoughts
with clammy fingers
i claim you my gorgeous desperate
whose insatiable lust
serves my will forever
Forever is Dead
forever is dead
the words that haunted me
haunt me still
your fragrance
still purges my soul
there is nothing i can do
to fend the pain away
a sick cycle of desperation
my broken heart
lies in your hands
and im still here
left for dead
mourning for what we had
wishing in vain
that i had never fallen
fallen into this pit of hell
that was once love
forever is dead
Unnamed
his beauty
she cries to the single star
shining aloft the frothy skies
a white light tinting the darkness around itself
with a lavender glow
his beauty
she awaits his strong arms
like wings they lift her to the heavens
his glimmering eyes
flaming emeralds set into his marble face
like the gods of old
their love sets the night afire
his beauty
the cold ache in her chest drive her slowly
into the throes of insanity
she longs for his lips
more than the breath that passes through her own
his words linger in her heart
and his name lingers on her tongue
Unnamed
images burnt on the retina
a solid sun in solemn magnificance
bow to the beast, bend to its will
or be broken
cringing fetus, clinging to the incubator
stoke the fire, singing flames
frantic with forgotten freedom
counting days
strip the chains away
my beloved blind Icharus
falling into your own shadow
the cold ashes of your birth
Unnamed
trigger happy and violently mad
the feel of the cold gun in my hand
nothing can soothe the savage beast
like the music of bullets released
crashing into his chest
his bloody mess
the rush of sick satisfaction
now your laid to rest
Tiffany
her doe-eyed smile fades into the grave
memory is all but lost
ashes to ashes and dust to dust
earth claims her daughter back
a bitter ache fills the empty hole
and she rides the storm
a beauty lost to all
Unnamed
tear me from my hopes, limb by limb
logic, always logic
teasing me with that grin
ill tear your jaw from its tendons
and feed you your tongue
stop whispering those words in my ear
whats the point of loving something
the slowest form of suicide
this insatiable thirst
driving me insane with its scent
just outside my desperate grasps
please dont wake me when i fall asleep
dont wake me just to drag me
kicking and screaming, a bloody fetus with violent intent
back into this cold reality
i hate you logic
take back your words
get out of my mind
go back to hell where you belong
Unnamed
could it be possible?
my hopes are raised, exalted
shining bright in the close light of pale luna
my spirit bathes in the glory
while logic dances below
waiting in hope's long shadow
to pick up the peices when it all crashes down
Unnamed
take away my dreams
no use to imagine
what cant happen
take away my hopes
at least i wont
set myself up for more disappointment
if my world keeps crashing down
why pick up the pieces??
Unnamed
breathe in the needles, take in the toxic gas
gasping for breath
eyes roll back helplessly
as you bow black against the raging flames
a thousand needles to your lungs
mutilation, rip out the biting tongue
maggots will take back your words for you
Maggots
maggots
white mercy of the earth
the humble reapers of flesh
the pale nothings
that keep the wheel of the world turning
Friend
how can you make me smile
when im crying?
we'll see each other again
but the absence between feels like dying
i know you'll be lonely
and i will too
so at least we'll be lonely together
i geuss thats the meaning of
friends forever
Absence
i miss you so badly
i feel like slicing open my chest
and pulling my heart out
so i wont feel the pain
the only reason not to
is that i couldnt die without you
Father
shove the rusty spoon down my throat
twist and tell me to smile
his tongue a wicked two-edged blade
cutting deep and hard
confused delinquent
swimming in deep waters
swallow words to keep from drowning
go ahead and wrap those mottled hands
around my throat
and tell me to breathe
go ahead and cut away my limbs
and tell me to walk
go ahead and glare into my soul
with those angry eyes
and i will stare defiantly back
Creature
yellowed monster starved and wretched
embracing with rotting arms
melting eyes bore into the naked soul
try so hard to devour
jaw hinging open like Pandora's box
withering breath shallow and shaking
serrated fangs like scraggly knives
black with decay
bruised body pale and blue
skin and bones, frail heart fluttering
a dying animal in a collapsing cage
slip that cold tongue into the brain
and pry with clammy fingers
beast of the darkest subconcious
clinging menace, dead weight on the broken back
Trap
welcome to my alabaster asylum
lined with silver, padded walls
closing in their closing in
locked tight in this gilded cage
fed ambrosia and lilies of the valley
glimmering needles
falling into the rabbit hole
the rabbit trap
Lava Lamp
mutated white embryo
warm with a pinkish glow
shining light on my true loves face
ah the tortured irony
of an old lava lamp and young memories
and the haunting eyes of a worn photo
Eros
olive green and icy gray
the colors ascending
fixed gase
the world means nothing
and time doesnt exist
living frozen in the moment
celestial love
lips touch and all is forgotten
dreaming in vain
utter and complete ectasy
is this what heaven is?
Awakening
the morning finds me
less than half awake
incoherant and dazed
left with a hazy impression of deep dreaming
struggling to peice together the fragments
slipping through my shaking fingers
to cling to the unreality
and claim it as memory
but upon gaining my bearings
bitter disappointment sets in
nasty taste in my mouth
welcome to the new day
Warring Love
his hand grips her thigh
she never thought it would come to this
the glitter of the bloodied knife
double-edged sword, double-edged tongue
cut out the heart, heel to the pumping vessel
tongue and teeth clash
bite and suck at his breathing neck
rip the breath away
stiletto daggers to his cracked-open chest
this twisted love and war
her darkest pleasure
blood-spattered lips red and warm
she smiles at his lovesick advances
his mouth hungers for her
she laughs softly into his kiss
and slips her knife between his ribs
delicious twist
scarlet runs between her fingers
she runs her fingers through his hair
grip it tight, rip slow and nice
gaze into the white of his eyes
Shackles and Straitjackets
clip my wings
bloody feathers on the floor of my rusty cage
clad in iron shackles
straining against my straitjacket
screaming against the confines of my mind
my fingers bleed
clawing the muddy walls of my grave
wont someone please
pull me from
this hole ive dug around myself
his eyes are cold
his tongue is merciless
i cower in the corner of my padded cell
haunted by self destructive memories
sinking into black oblivion, bloody subconscious
Breaking Glass
turn it up, the sick assault
sound pounds, destructive decibels
over driven adrenaline
the greatest high you can get
my favorite vibration
word can't grasp this sensation
just turn it up
break the glass
Cheribum
this sweet release, chemical release
your kiss brings me
the yeilding mercy of dopemine
your glimmering eyes
suck me into this delicious high
your succulent kiss becomes all reality
my sweet incubus
give me this kiss, my final fix
your voice so sensous
for you ill die
please take my life
November 10th
a cluster of dried leaves comes
rolling, crackling, and crawling
the wind their hurried master
go on little leaves
rush to crowd around the old feet of the trees
and hide in shadowed holes
for a rain is coming
little drops fall here and there
the fading light captured in their bellies
silver dashing to meet the earth
as it steadily rises to meet them
come, brothers and sisters, it calls
run into my warm embrace
for a voice is coming
a dark and deep voice indeed
rolling thunder, the song of the sky mountains
the wind cries in fear and speeds along
making way for its king
purple growls shake the earth
and demands its silence
for a light is coming
lightning shatters the moist dark
defining the bruised cloudheads
revealing their craggy faces frowning in the sky
it crashes down to strike the earth
the world frozen in a white flash
its veiny claws bring stark beauty to all
and strikes them with fright
for the storm is here
Unnamed
violent urges pull me to their call
the unending beat
can you feel the metal?
the strength of the sound
solid, volume
an epiphany of sounds
cacophony of chaos
increasingly attractive
the harmonies seem unreal
ecstasy
chemical release
energy is channeled, challenging, fulfilling
come forth to its call
come forth to its call
Ache
these emotions grip my soul
drawing and pulling upon heartstrings
i never knew were there
soul and body become one
in the vacuum of want that drives me on
the taste that drives away the emptiness
fills my hallow soul
temptations untainted
i miss him
i miss his touch
Dreams
what young fools are we
the dreams of you that haunt the night
laying in white snow
gazing into green eyes
tinted with vibrant red
dark lashes curl and crown the wondrous windows
and your soft lips envelope mine
pondering what love this is
wishing for forever
Knots
fate
is a silk road
woven in lofty loops
and dipping under bridges
diving through gaps
and shifting directions
twisting
into sudden drops and surprises
tightening as slack ebbs away
the lengths running out
you struggle
desperate inside the mass
as the ties tie tighter
choking
cutting deep into you
throttling
stealing away your
last
breath
