I suppose you are correct Cause.
It is just, that, sometimes I'm not sure and am looking for ideas.
I Do have 1 fursuit crush and I'm not telling who it is. It came unexpectedly.
I have plushies, wish I had my Carebear I had from long long ago ( vintage), I do suit despite it being hard hot and tiring. But the cost is still something I regret.
I do have a few furry art pieces on the wall.
I'm also in the therian crowd due to how my life progressed and all the weird wolf dreams.
I guess I'm in too deep to get out now, haha!
Sometimes I just wonder... do I belong anyway?
Self doubt creeps in.
In the end I'm just a guy who likes some anthropomorphic animal stuff.
Seems to me, many furries have to be "special" in some way to be fully accepted by the fandom.
Be it in the form of a non binary sexuality/ identity, mentally different in unexplainable ways, or... something. But I'm none of that. I wonder if I'm too normal to be really a fur. And if I have to be THAT level of different, and I can not, I'll just go. I don't want to change me. What you see is what you get. In real life the only difference is I don't wear my suit. I don't do furry videos, I'm not in social media really, etc.
I'm a ham radio operator, engineer, rock and mineral collector, DIY'er, mountain biker, shade tree auto mechanic, dreamer, part time lousy artist, average Joe who sometimes suits up as a dog. Because I like the breed, was saved from death 2 times by GSD's, and raised 2 and going on 3.
But no one cares. They would rather me be very colorful, a different sexual orientation, and all over social media.
Well that's not me.
I guess I need to come to some decision and either stay on as I am, or go.
I wound be saddened to lose the friends I've made here.
People often say you are a fur if you think you are/ say you are. In a technical way this is true, but in a practical way I think it's possibly not so true. The large group does seem to enforce an underwritten rule of the club and you are judged. By a group who touts judgment free zones.
Maybe I'm blowing this out of proportion.