Alone
How I am left
How I should be
How I am kept
It's just me
I am alone
A Family's Love
I am dying inside
I know while I sit here alone
My brother's world will collide
While my mom gets off to the cologne in her nose
My father will be crushed
When he knows how I feel
When my brother's friend's cheeks flush
I know how to conceal
I know I should care
But I know I can't do that
While starving me in the lair
While she's petting her cat
I write this in silence
Afraid to speak
May solitude commence
As I fear being seen
Anxiety's Brew of Invisible
Needing to breathe
Gasping for air
They stare at me
But don't know I'm there
I look around
And hear no soul
I know that I'm bound
To lose all control
I'm pretty sure death
Feels something like this
You take your last breath
They forget you exist
You search through a crowd
Looking to find
Not jewels nor crown
But a set of kind eyes
The seams come unglued
Out comes the frayed thread
Your thoughts become crude
You know this is the end
Keep Inside
Blink. Keep your eyes closed.
Breathe, do that if you can I suppose.
Grab a friend and hold them tight,
Give them your sickness, day or night.
Keep your insanity in your head,
And maybe get somebody in your bed,
To cuddle you and hold you close,
To keep you alive, you suppose.
Just take your pills and keep inside,
All of the sadness lingering nigh.
Night time is so terrifying to me.
As fear takes hold, I put my face in my knees.
Fighting tears with my fists.
Bleeding blood from my wrists.
I'm trying to sketch the pain away,
But I know that this leads me astray