Well....this is my first poem I guess...and yes, this is vent writing. I dont know, just some bad feelings and some worse experiences. I just...got noone in real life I can talk to really without the fear of judgement, so I write it out...and I guess in this moment I felt a poem was in order? I dont write poetry.......sorry if this makes you sad or anything, its just how I feel...
---Collapse is Imminent---I am one way
Yet I am another
Two sides
One breaks me down
But I agree with him
The other wants what’s best
Yet I ignore him
Collapse is imminent
People think I’m dull
But inside I’m ablaze
My friends see who I am
Yet inside I’m someone else
They know only what I permit
Even to myself
I’m someone different
Collapse is imminent
I tell myself not to worry
That everything will be fine
But within I wage war
Both sides want me oblivious
But I know what is going on
I must choose a side now
But neither are beneficial
Collapse is imminent
I have an escape
A way out
But the escape is worse
More dreadfully fear inducing
Than facing reality
Yet I run away in this escape
And I enjoy it
Collapse is imminent
I have two sides
And they are at each others' throats
My friend’s don’t know me
I don’t know me
I want to escape
But the escape is terrifying
The collapse is coming
Collapse is imminent