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New Poetry...wanted to share (comments and critiques as always)
« on: January 30, 2015, 03:07:47 pm »
The life I used to know
I leave it all behind
I give the truth for you to know
And you laughed when I cried

You can push me down, scream in my face,
Leave me all alone,
This will not be my resting place
I am made of stone

You will not break my spirits now
I'll hold my breath if I have to
To hope for change but I don't know how
For awhile this change has been overdue

Grade A psycho and squirrel chaser am I
You see what you choose to see
Not the hurt boy trapped inside
But the perfect girl you want me to be

I reach out for the ones who hold me close, who truly love me
But they aren't here, I reach my hand out
Across a country, or an ocean or more, but they're the ones who see
Even though they're far from me, they fill my emotional drought
The loveliest day I ever had, was the day when tomorrow never came.

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Re: New Poetry...wanted to share (comments and critiques as always)
« Reply #1 on: February 02, 2015, 09:35:30 pm »
Memoirs of Gender Dysphoria

The cloud hangs over my head
The pain I've felt for years
It makes me sleep and not get out of bed
And makes me awake each night with tears

I wake up each morning my eyes full of tears
And I put on my binder
As I try to push away my fears
I force myself to go to school feeling like a liar

There's those teachers, known by first name
I use my free time to beg for any help at all
But they all act the same
"I can't call you by that name, no not at all."

"We can only use name and sex on your birth certificate,
No other may be used,
We have to tell dad about this."
He is a lit fuse

The other kids ask questions all day long,
Although it hurts me deep inside,
I know I must be strong.
And I hate the rules, but I know I must abide.

I'm reminded of my pain when my binder is forced on.
It hurts and rubs against my chaffing skin.
People see that my inner light is gone,
And they ask me where I've been.

I feel the lump in my throat as I look in the mirror
"Chase, you're so much better than this!!"
But as I say this, the female me makes me feel inferior.
"You'll never be a real boy! You're a girl with a selfish wish!"

As I force myself to see my female form,
In the mirror there's a stranger I see.
My hair is short, my clothes are torn.
But the body that I have, this person isn't me!

This stranger in the mirror, this human prison.
I think a shower might calm my restless mind.
How disgusting and awful is this mission,
To wash a body that wasn't meant to be mine?

Now I have to wait for the dysphoria to lessen.
I take it day by wretched day, and maybe I won't get through.
I look up and see that the moon's a lovely crescent,
And maybe I'll wake up from this nightmare really soon.
The loveliest day I ever had, was the day when tomorrow never came.