Lack of self esteem.
(only to a slight extent but i can easily get past things once i start doing something)
- reason i might be getting a job soon. need more money to get a working holiday visa to be with sciex (keitsu), and to help give both of us better life quality.
Lack of skills/experience.
-if i had the skills/experience then i'd be developing a game right now
Other reason. Please explain.
- social anxiety, family, society makes things far more difficult. social anxiety since well.. im just awkward around other people, though i can get past this with some practice just leads to the next issue -->family because usually if someone wanted to sell something to people around them they would just post it online and say come to my house if you want to buy it, and done. my dad doesnt want people coming here so im going to need to meet up with them or mail the stuff? another reason family makes it difficult since its just awkward dealing with them when i want to do something (for example leaving the house, never really something i did so its going to catch unwanted attention from my dad event though he's fine with it) and then the final issue society which includes school, government/what ever. without school i could be working alot more when i do start, and i could stop worrying about the distress that place causes me plus i will have that diploma to get a working holiday visa. another issue would be back to the whole thing about sciex getting denied entry, if that didnt happen then things would be far simpler. then there is the thing with college and general ed. if general ed wasnt a thing i could just go take a game design course, but no they want me to go through all that stuff again..
i still feel i could have a bright future ahead of me, its just that i need to get out the the current mess that i am (this house, school, sorta social anxiety), and actually have someone to rely on in case my attempt to succeed makes me fall right on my face (not doing too well at this either sadly)