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Offline Joel

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« on: May 01, 2003, 07:33:10 am »
Last tuesday, I went to a psychologist; it turns out that I might have Ausberger's and/or depression... -_-

I just don't want to feel cold inside anymore... but I'm scared, in any case...

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« Reply #1 on: May 01, 2003, 07:57:28 am »
That's a pretty heavy development there.
At least if you know what you've got, you can seek help and treatment for it. It's better than to never be diagnosed and ending up going through life just feeling down and not knowing that something could have been done to help it.
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« Reply #2 on: May 01, 2003, 09:26:54 am »
I have been seriously depressed for a while...even attempted suicide...but I got help...and worked out the feelings I had (it all led back to my father rejecting me after my mom pased away). I did alot of activities, such as drawing, going to the gym and playing cards...little things to get my mind off these feelings...and I let my friends know, which is important. If you ever need to talk, PM me on ICQ, MSN or email or anything '<img'>
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« Reply #3 on: May 01, 2003, 12:17:09 pm »
Since you have found out what is the 'diagnosis' now is the time to talk with others, professionally or otherwise, as they have offered here. Some times the best 'cure' is just being able to talk things out that are troubling you, even if you don't know what they may be yet, just ramble on about anything in your mind and you will find the source, I am sure. Seeking professional help is best, in most cases.

Most of all, try and keep a positive out look and get creative or anything that you can to keep yourself/mind occupied, as Ecco mentioned.

I wish you luck! Let us know how things are going.
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« Reply #4 on: May 01, 2003, 02:46:56 pm »
Wow, Joel. I've seen you as one of the more spontanious and poppy people I know. I sorta find that hard to belive. Like everyone has been saying, Its good to talk. I firmly belive in that if you hold things in, it'll pop and drive you mad. I don't really follow through with such advise, as I don't want to dump my probs on others, but do talk. It helps you, and others will be more understanding towards you. It can also help find new avenues in helping yourself.

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« Reply #5 on: May 01, 2003, 03:23:11 pm »
I can not talk as a doctor Joel but I do have some experience IMO.  Something to keep in mind is Depression is not always permanent.  The theory is that when a lot of bad things happen we build up a lot of negative memories which may not be at the surface but we never forget.  This “depression” creates a cycle by coloring other events in our life “down” that really shouldn’t be.  Sometimes drugs can help to cut out the depression cycle of lows but if often not a fix all.  Also self management is “very” important.  Think of your mind as a “room” and your senses are the window to that room.  Good things are “light” and bad things are like “darkness”.  If it’s so dark in your “room” then you will miss the “”light” that is around.  One of the few ways around that which actively works is to force yourself “each day” to notice good things that you enjoy or love.  Ie force the light in despite so much dark.  Some people have found a “tremendous” amount of good just forcing themselves to sit outdoors in a nice place (backyard under a tree, etc) for an hour a day during daylight.  It’s something good and visible sunlight helps produce an endorphin in the brain that can naturally raise your spirits as well.  It’s hard work to motivate when down.  But actively doing these has proved for lots of people they can dig themselves out of a bad depression.  It’s just a suggestion from experience and perhaps worth talking with your doctor if your unsure?
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« Reply #6 on: May 01, 2003, 04:55:48 pm »
*I understand how you feel Joel, I have been going through a form of depression since xmas myself. I have been visiting a doctor too, and i am currently taking medication aswell. Depression can be somthing the a person can't control, even a "chemical imbalance" in some. For Some it can be triggered by a number of "traumatic" events, When i was young, I went through the pain of witnessing my parents going through a long & violent divorce, that probally contributed to my condition now. I guess recent problems at my work,  among others , ..have triggered my condition over the last fiew months. My doctors have been monitoring my condition alot, he tells me its' somthing that is almost unpreventable in my case do to past events. but it's definitely treatable ! you are not alone when it comes to this kind of condition, and should  not make it worse by blaming yourself. there is help , believe me. I hope things get better for you, ...I know it will.  '<img'>
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« Reply #7 on: May 02, 2003, 03:15:17 am »
With any thread like this, you seem to get a lot of people joining in saying, 'don't just look at him; I've got problems too!'.  It's most likely because people want to have the attention, though it also makes you realise you're not alone in your problems.  I can only really talk from personal experience here, so I'll see if I can make a good moral of the story at the end of it.  Until fairly recently, I used to see a councillor on a regular basis.  I don't really want to go into the reasons why, but I'll just say I had some issues.  The thing is, I stopped seeing her, by my own choice.  The reason was because I felt I could not be open to her about myself, and about my problems.  The result of that was that I still wasn't any better after seeing her, and was pretty much a waste of time.  It did not help me at all.  I say to you, if you feel like you really want to go ahead and see this councillor to 'help' you through your depression, then do so, but don't hold anything back.  I know it's hard - I couldn't do it - but I feel you're more open to humans than I.  Another thing I wish to say is that if you don't feel like you want to have any help, then don't.  Do not let anyone force you to go through it if you don't want to, as it is a scary thing, and you'll need to be certain in your mind that it is what you want to do.  Look both ways before you cross the street.
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« Reply #8 on: May 02, 2003, 06:28:40 am »
With the way the world is today, it's hard to stay positive...but you just have to be strong! '<img'>
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« Reply #9 on: May 02, 2003, 07:03:27 am »
I've never heard of Ausberger's before, unless you meant Asperger's syndrome, which is closely linked Autism.

I'd say it's just a bad case of depression, and you should try and take it easy for a while. If things are getting difficult talking things over with your doctor can help.

As everyone else here has said I'm wishing you the best.

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« Reply #10 on: May 02, 2003, 09:08:37 am »
Quote (Zero @ May 02 2003, 7:03 am)
I've never heard of Ausberger's before, unless you meant Asperger's syndrome, which is closely linked Autism.

Ack, I guess I misspelled it  ':dead:'

In any case, thanks guys.  Recently, I found an odd thing: almost everyone who was born into my mother's side of the family has depression, and I take more after her than m'dad, so that's probably it...

@Benjamin: Thanks for talking to me on AIM; it helped.  
@Ecco:  I'll be sure to soon!  ^^;
@Kada-Ru: Well, I've recently started exercising more (Read: Playing DDR), and practicing m'drawing and writing, so I've got something to do.  Thanks for ye advice!
@Jadnar: As you can see from above, I have been attempting to do so.  Also, thanks for talking to me on AIM as well ^^;
@WhiteShepherd: Hmm... that's something I've never heard before.  I'll try it...
@Firestrom Six: As is shown above, it most likely is genetic; probably a chemical imbalance... but then again, who knows?
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@Drakonian: Don't worry, I'm not being forced into this or anything; it's m'own choice... I have another appointment on May 6th, and so far I haven't had a problem with her.  Yet again, thanks for talking to me on AIM; it may sound trite by now, but it really helped, and I mean it.
@Zero: The psychologist said she'd have to get a second opinion about the Asperger's; I'm not even sure exactly what it is *Will look for information later XD*  
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« Reply #11 on: May 04, 2003, 10:24:28 pm »
I won't say I know what your going through because Im not you obvious right, and I can't speek as a profesional doctor or anything right. All I will say Is the advise given of talk to people is the best there is. Depression can take allot to get over but the more you shut youresefl off the harder it becomes to open up to others . It can seem the world does not care and after a bit your emotiones just feel shut off at the sorce you can still do everything as normal but the emotion behind the actions just isn,t there. This is what can fool people they think that everything is ok so when it all get's too much and you pop they wonder why. Just let others know and things will gradualy get better. Also try and find a distraction this may sound silly but find something too do learn another languadge go hikeing, paint write just something that you can control and that distracts you from the rest of the world then when things seem to be getting bad just go and do it. You can then try and let the rest of the world melt away again it's not easy But at least YOU control it this help honest. I can't offer quick solutions all I can offer is a open ear if you need it you can e-mail me or AIM or whatever we're all here and can help. There is nothing worse than being where you are now but if you look around youll see that there are many people willing to help you and who do care about you so don't feel alone your not and there are many that im sure you have helped and that see your worth even if you do not see it yourself.
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