tbear:
First, I can understand how scarey those night terrors can be, as I had them as well. For years I would have the same reoccuring dream of being chased through a wheat filed or some other tall grassy stuff by a pack of wild canines. The leader of which was a large rotwieler, second in command was a german shepard. I would always be running as fast as I could towards a light which I assumed to be a porchlight in the distance. When I looked back, I would be able to see things from a higher standpoint then my typical hieght, as if I was looking down at an angle from the sky at the moving paths of crushed wheat representing the dogs chasing and gaining on me, the paths converging towards the area I was running in. I would turn forward and my vision would be normal first person again, the light looking like it was getting closer. But I would always hear a snarl and turn around just in time to be knocked to the ground by the leaping snarling foaming rotwieler, other dogs coming into sight as well. I would always wake up as it was lunging from a reared back position, to tear out my throat.
I had this dream at least every other night from about age 6 to 19. Then, not being able to take it anymore, I talked to a pstchology professor I was learning from. He gave me a few tips on getting rid of the thoughts from my subconscious which would most likely cause the dream and I tried some. I admit I didn't think drawing a dead rotwieler or ripping up a picture of one from a magazine would help. But it did. I stopped ahaving the dream a short while later and havent had it since. I also learned later in years how to wake myself up or turn the plot of a dream into my favor while still sleeping.
As for your question of spirituality, do not worry about it. Just be who you are and don't worry about grabbing all the supposed normal tiles in the game of life so that you can display them as proof of normalcy. (This goes for anyone reading this as well.) Spirituality isn't necessary for everyone. Do what feels right to you. And if you don't know what feels right, then experiment and find out what works best.
~River