Author Topic: Six months later... (Read 2479 times)

Drake Blackpaw · « **on:** July 03, 2003, 03:50:03 pm »

Six months later…

We were never close
And never will be
We fought, disagreed, and competed
Clashing against each other

I raced to show that I was better
Driving hard and climbing far
Not happy, not enjoying, just proving
Blindly going as far as I could

So I quickly passed the marks
And looking back felt empty
Unfulfilled, without purpose, and petty
I reached your goals not mine

I wanted to shove it in your face
But when I looked you changed
No longer angry, fearful, and oppressive
Now sad and remorseful

Peace developed between us
I wasn’t mad at the man you became
I forgave, let go, and moved forward
Not friends, but caring about each other

I stand by my mom
And look at the stone that marks you
Hoping I can find the happiness, peace, and self-love
That always eluded you

Poem's background: My father passed away a couple weeks before Christmas. I just got back from Florida after visiting my mom for the first time after helping her get everything in order and disposed of over the Christmas holiday. Before I left yesterday, we went to the cemetary where his ashes are buried. We didn't have the best relationship when I was growing up. But we made peace with each other, and there was nothing let unsaid between us when he suddenly passed away.

Drake

Manethran · « **Reply #1 on:** July 04, 2003, 01:34:02 am »

*wipes away his tears* My friend.... I do not know what to say. I do not know how to express the feelings I am experiencing now.

Bear Paw · « **Reply #2 on:** July 07, 2003, 08:35:19 pm »

Powerfull and very emotional peice blackpaw thats all I can put in to words the rest can only be felt.

Drake Blackpaw · « **Reply #3 on:** July 08, 2003, 07:09:24 pm »

Thanks Bear Paw and Mane, I appreciate both of your's feedback.

This was one of those poems that took almost no time to write at all. The feelings just came and went right to paper. It's a little scary that you can express an entire father - son relationship in a small poem.

Drake

Manethran · « **Reply #4 on:** July 08, 2003, 07:54:07 pm »

A sign of a true poet my friend.

The ability to simplify something so profound in life down to a few lines and still maintain the strong emotional ties that brought it forth to existance, is not something to be taken lightly.

Kada-Ru · « **Reply #5 on:** July 09, 2003, 12:00:57 pm »

I was able to tell by the end of the poem you were talking about your father and your relationship and that he passed on. ':cry:'

You did a VERY good job putting your feelings to a few words. Not all relationships are perfect and I am glad you two were able to settle things between you in the end. (pegasus hug)

Patrick Rangerwolf · « **Reply #6 on:** July 09, 2003, 07:02:31 pm »

So much emotion packed into such a simple passage.

The love between pack members always comes through. It's not perfect, but it never fails and lasts beyond and always cheats death.