Poem I wrote a while ago that I enjoy sharing with the world.
This Used to be my Eternity
There was a time when I was alone
Interacting with the world with but a phone
I hid away, in my room, my castle
Human beings are too much of a hassle
This was a problem, so I tried to resolve it
Ah, hypnosis, that outta dissolve it.
Trance came, trance went, from day to day
Nothing seemed to get better, until thoughts went astray
And strange as it seems, what would I find?
But a girl, quite young, floating free in my mind
She was young, beautiful, and ripe with beauty
She looked like she had a true sense of duty
I left her quickly, wondering what I saw
It wasn't long though before I answered the call
'This girl needs me!' I resolved rather fast,
So once again, into trance I was cast
Upon entering though, the girl was not to be found
I sighed, grumbled, and kicked at the ground.
"Who are you?" I asked, with a tremulous sigh
"Why are you not to be seen by my eyes?"
The silence stretched for an uncomfortable hour
The loss of this girl, was a loss of power
Then, a sound, like a soft, silent dove
"I am Raine, and it is you whom I love."
Taken aback, I turned and saw,
The girl from before, I could only gaze in awe
Her sapphire eyes, how they shone in the light,
Her pale skin, but a few shades from white
Her tumulous hair, blond as the sun
Her ruby lips, showing, like roses redone
She curtseyed, I bowed, and then she spoke
"Why are you here, when my form is but smoke?"
I puzzled and stared, what could she mean?
"Are... are you from the world in between?"
She blinked, then nodded, a soft small gesture
"Yes, where my soul... has been captured."
I blinked. "Captured? What do you mean?"
I was confused, was she not what she seemed?
"I have been here, for many, many years
Waiting for my pleas to not fall on deaf ears,
So please, please, take me from this place
I promise to remain in your good grace."
It wasn't easy to refuse, what could I say?
This girl needed help, it was her lucky day.
I extended a hand, smiled, and said.
"Well come with me, and rest your pretty head."
I retreated from the trance, bringing with me Raine.
Little did I know, this would one day be my bane.
Upon bringing her home, one thing was seen
Her dress was far more elegant than that of my jeans
Perhaps my situation or thoughts were dire,
As I slowly began to alter my attire
From shirts to suits, from jeans to pants
I thought for sure this would be my chance
However, despite her claims, adoration was not found
So I tried to impress her, with methods less than sound
I asked her of her life - both before and after her passing
However, she was secretive, very little amassing
She told me of life, she told me of death
But not of what she said to me with her first breath
I was on the verge of giving up my pursuit
She was too quiet, almost as it was her repute
I sighed, and backed off from her personal life
Remembering it was only causing her strife
I left her to her own devices for now
With but a simple word, and a very slight bow
One day came, I was standing alone,
I heard her words, almost a soft, calm drone
"Why have you left me Lover? We've barely begun."
I sighed. "Because I believe you mistake me for the wrong one,"
I stood there, silent, staring with a pallid face,
And then I felt her arms, a spiritual embrace.
"I am not mistaken," She said in my ear
"When I spoke, you did not mishear
I've been looking and searching for one like you
And just as we meet, you believe we are through,"
I sighed and leaned back, her voice so soft
Perhaps I wasn't wrong, my thoughts were aloft
I smiled softly, she did care after all for me
Her soft gentle smile was all I needed to see
Before I knew it though, I was beginning to fall
Passing through Raine, until I couldn't see her at all
Faster and faster I continued my descent
But what had happened? What had this meant?
Surrounded by blackness, without a single light
Unsure of what had happened, had it shifted to night?
No, that couldn't be, night never grew this dark
So where was I in this land where life is stark?
I curl against myself, in the land of black
Perhaps closing my eyes would lead me back
My eyes opened to a familiar sight
My bed, my pillows, my sheets - I was alright!
I pulled myself from the entangling covers
I was alive! Now Raine and I could be lovers.
But something was wrong, something felt off
I looked over myself, and choked out a cough
My legs, they weren't mine, nor were my hands
Not my face, my body, feet where I stand!
Wait... my face... It looked like mine...
But it was feminine, softer, beauty divine.
I was shorter, looked younger and somewhat familiar
But even a good friend wouldn't see where I was similar
I looked to the sky, asking what was going on
"Where are you Raine?! Where have you gone?!"
Silence, and then, a small soft tone.
It was Raine's voice again, I wasn't alone!
But, strange, she was nowhere to be seen,
But there was it coming from? What did it mean?!
"Thank you so much, you've helped me a lot.
"Now I can live, instead of waiting to rot."
I blinked, and puzzled, what did she say?
I tried asking, but my words held no sway
She smiled again, only this time, I did as well
Only then did realization become clear as a bell.
In trying to gain Raine's adoration,
I had triggered a transformation
No longer would I go through life as a boy,
But rather, a girl, which Raine would enjoy.
Tears welled up in my eyes as my fate sinked in
I wasn't a girl! I was male within!
Then Raine spoke, and my mind went numb
It seems, to her will, I was starting to succumb
I asked her why, why had she done this?
Trying to find out before I fell to the abyss
She smiled that smile, as I awaited her reply
What had I done to lose myself as a guy?
"For years I waited, and waited for one
Who would find me, and cause this curse to be undone
I waited, and waited, and almost gave up hope,
And then you appeared, and I believed I could cope.
Rest assured, I still love you, for breaking my curse,
If I hadn't found you then, things would have gotten worse."
I silently wept as my will ebbed away,
My self was leaving, I had been betrayed,
I wept, and I wept, until the tears stopped their flow,
And then, I felt my thoughts begin to slow
Soon I would be gone, just a faded memory,
And Raine would live on, wild and free.
I asked one more time, why had she done it?
She smiled that smile, and answered to wit:
"All those years I waited, and waited for you,
You came, I was elated, there was nothing else to do.
Finally, the answer came to my question that was causing me strife...
'Who will love me enough to sacrifice his very life?'"
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Hope you enjoy it!
