Hi Jade!,
Haha you are right, judging on your name i would have indeed assumed you to be a girl. One would not think first you are referencing to the stone's name.
Oh i have had that issue also with screen names, ..not to mention my hand signature i use for official paperwork today. when i was 14 and had to "invent" one i made this retarded one. and now i am stuck with it.....*silent ghost voice* Forever!.....
I see!, good to hear i am not the only one not following the standard line of settling down with a family. I am sure you had your fair share of conversations too that started with "is it not time to settle down?". or "you never get lonely?". And when you make your point there is always those that look at you with an gaze like they hear something impossible to comprehend.
Honestly its the first time i hear someone around my age that does the same in the regard of living alone. Interresting.
Well my father was into video games, But my uncle took my mother's remark i already saw Aliens when i was 5 years old (because i kept sneaking to my mom's room to watch movies) as an excuse to introduce me to PC gaming. and not just one game, but it was DOOM. That's right, my uncle sat me down. gave me god mode, all weapons and infinite ammo and let me have a go. While my mother tought i was playing something along the lines of super mario.
Things went okay, i had no nightmares and never told my mom as my uncle made me promise to "never tell her about the cool game". But honestly, my path of depravity was already decided.
my town's school was this traditional christian school right?. And we had every week drawing classes. And i really liked Doom with the Chainsaw, shotgun and gore. And here i was drawing in detail scenes from Doom. My teacher had a meltdown when she saw my artwork, and my mom of course had to show up to explain. While i figured as a 5 year old i did nothing wrong, i put dismembered monster's, a blooded chainsaw and hellish scene's to the best of my ability with my crayons on paper.
After school, my mom took me and my artwork to my uncle that still lived with his parents to tell about something "serious". In pr essence of my mom's and uncle's parents. the drawing was laid on table, and my grandfather and grandmother could not control their laughter. After this, i was not allowed to play doom anymore. And my uncle introduced me to Dune 2. the first strategy game. I drew that too, but my teacher's where pleased with the change of artwork
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Sorry for the elaborate introduction of me into videogames.... my family member's where not neglecting, my mother just got tired of sending me to bed like 5 times a night unless i saw the movie and slept a full night after that. My uncle, well he was a big kid himself at that age.
Today i mostly play strategy games, and fiddle with their programming of them to suit my preference's. i never really played tabletop games, the only one i can remember is Monopoly. I am a huge fan of warhammer 40K too, but i really do not have the patience to roll dice and take turns. I understand the deep level of gameplay and i respect that. but I am more the PC Real time strategy fan.
I know about therians, in the past i have spend some time on a site or two so i know what you are talking about
. my experiences on those places are almost an topic on itself. And my room upstairs where i sleep and game is full of wolf and werewolf stuff. Hell, at one point i even got a werewolf tattoo.
So basically i am the same in the context of feeling a connection with a wolf.
But my involvement in those community's mostly saw me as playing the devil's advocate in the sense i understood some people aversion to certain things in our society. But in an 21st century society that allows us to connect online, gives us supermarkets that are supplied daily, gives is functioning infrastructure and where emergency services are guaranteed you just can not have one without the other in society.
In my traveling i have been to places where having one lightbulb in a town was seen nothing short as a miracle, where the primary life concern was getting water from a place miles down the road. and hope you do not cross a local militia or crooked police officer on the way back to your home. That some things are a matter of perspective.
That said, There are also LOADS of things that could be different or improved. Like i said, discussing therian related topics are community's on themselves.
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I am sorry to hear your "came out" did not go too well. Honestly i sort of had practice with trying to explain people other things to give them another perspective on something. Some are open for that, some need some time to get used to it. And sadly some react negatively and even sometimes naive and short sighted.
People that you live with like friends, coworker's and family establish this certain idea/picture of what makes "you". They put you into this figurative "box" of how they expect you to be and even go as far to establish what morals and value's you have. even if you never told them. And when they are confronted with an total opposite of their belief's about someone it...in general...does not end positive in most cases.
I just know people got certain boundary's they are never willing to cross. For example my best friend, i can spend with him an entire night out back in the garden with an bottle of vodka laying in lounging chairs. Watching the stars and talking about the latest developments of space engines, projects, Mars colonization. the Status of the ITER Project in France until daylight comes. But, he will never ever touch the territory of otherkin/therian/furry's. And i accepted that, i feel our mutual history and friendship should not be limited to this one interrest of mine.
But as one of your interrests are science and engineering, you ever seen series The Expanse?.
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I Always accepted people for how they are myself. People should live their lives as they see fit, just like i live mine
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For myself, i guess its safe to say my preffences in the furry domain. you know how your friends deal with that?. *in a bar/club* "yeah, watch my girlfriend while i go to the toilet/get a pack of cigarettes".
An intelligent conversation about why you do not show interrest in girls around you, they are simply incapable to have with you. yet somehow when they get drunk they suddenly realize there is this 3 metre's safe zone around you where you viciously attack any male approaching your friends girlfriends.
me: "you let me babysit your girlfriend so you....".
Friend: "another pint of beer!".
me "ooohh!!".
did i mention i feel cheap sometimes?
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for myself, i eventually want to work out the character. and maybe the fursuit.
But for now i better learn fist from the ones that have been around in the community for a while.
@ old rabbit, i am sure that i will!. and thanks for the cookie!
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